Mixed Martial Art | New Moon in Gemini | June 2019

June’s  New Moon in Gemini  (Decan II) aligned with the  9 of Swords  serves up an invitation to get in the right frame of mind and clear up any cluttered (dangerous) thought patterns that lead to suffering in one way or another. A positive mental shift is on tap when we bring awareness to the inner-workings of our psyche and take action to get more emotionally secure with the way things are and what we have the power to change. We can release guilt, shame and feel more alive with this one, when we pay attention to where our head’s at.

June’s New Moon in Gemini (Decan II) aligned with the 9 of Swords serves up an invitation to get in the right frame of mind and clear up any cluttered (dangerous) thought patterns that lead to suffering in one way or another. A positive mental shift is on tap when we bring awareness to the inner-workings of our psyche and take action to get more emotionally secure with the way things are and what we have the power to change. We can release guilt, shame and feel more alive with this one, when we pay attention to where our head’s at.

This NEW MOON’s Soundtrack: Cruel Summer (Cobra Kai version) by Kari Kimmel [Music Video]

The Challenge: insomnia, restlessness, self-punishment, convinced to jump to dark/negative conclusions, hopeless assumptions, trouble seeing a way through the darkness or even a glimmer of light, panic attacks/anxiety, loneliness and isolation, overwhelming guilt

The Breakthrough/Potential Wisdom: forgiveness of self and others, emotional healing, establishing new empowering thought patterns, invigorated connection to intuition, renewed self-compassion/healthy sense of identity

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This New Moon sets us up for a provocative Eclipse season, as the next New Moon will be a Total Solar Eclipse in Cancer. The energy is intensifying. Change is getting more and more real + deep with Saturn and Pluto in Capricorn. Everything is up for grabs as we literally reshape and redefine our reality from the inside-out. All while Jupiter and Neptune make it tough to tell the Truth from fantasy or bold-faced lies.

Now is the time to wake up to our own thought patterns (and impulsive actions) that lead nowhere good…

It’s like we must think it through to the most reasonable outcome… all the way through to the end…. see where the kinds of things we’re engaging in are actually heading —- without denying reality and consequences

The energy humming in the background all year is most definitely complicated. But this is a NEW Moon, which means it’s a time for new energy and intentions. This one is a bit of a mind-bender as it is aligned with a #9 (the 9 of Swords) which is a harvest and culmination, but also a time of emergence and new intentions.

You could think of this (—- and there will be a lot of thinking with this one) as a time to clear out the clutter in our minds. It’s like we need to get our head straight before we embark on a journey and enter the shadows that lie ahead of us. I find it fascinating that we’ve had several moon phases aligned with Tarot cards that show us how/where we lose ourselves and our connection to a Higher Power. These moonbeams exhaust the vibes brought to light with the last Full Moon in Scorpio; total debauchery. That was emotional darkness. Now we face cruelty… with the swords. The immense suffering that our minds can create. This is an opportunity to get control of our thought patterns that have gone seriously sideways and return to hope, forgiveness and heart. Mars in Cancer with the North Node of the Moon can help us out with this. It’s like plugging our mind into what our heart knows and taking a moment to press “Sync”.

Martial Art

The 2nd decan of Gemini is ruled by Mars and this Tarot card (9 of Swords) embodies the influence of Mars in Gemini. While there’s a lot going on in the cosmos now, the only astrological aspect the Sun and Moon make is a semi-sextile to Mars. So these “planetary energies attract each other, require effort, allow entry of new information”.

By getting curious, stopping to become more introspective, we can tune into what our initial responses are to feelings of not being safe. We can learn more about ourselves and even something new about what makes us tick… and it may not be what we first assume we know about our Self. We’re nudged to tune the channel of our mind to the channel where our hearts sings. And also where we are drawn to the familiar, safe and seemingly (but perhaps not really) secure.

It could be something familiar, from the past, perhaps early childhood. It could have distorted drives due to past trauma, that lingers and is most familiar to us. Like the girl who always ends up falling for the guy who beats her and treats her like absolute garbage. No, it’s not the outcome she wants BUT it is what she has come to expect from life, so it is familiar. And in an odd way, that makes it seem safer than going out with the “nice guy” (the unfamiliar).

I see this lovely support from Mars in Cancer helping us to become more competent when it comes to trusting our intuition, our most natural instincts toward empathy and even our first impressions (emotional data). First we must listen, and get good at listening to those subtler signals and then acting on them more quickly. We can become more competent and confident in being who we are.

... it’s competence that makes people as safe as they can truly be.
— Dr. Jordan B. Peterson

We can shift self-cruelty into self-compassion… that will in turn attract more compassion from others into our lives. It’s always a dance with The Lovers, the sign of the dynamic duo, Gemini.

Lovers and Haters

We can start to see how cruel we’ve been to ourselves. And even how that has been projected or pushed onto others. Or where we’re holding onto victim-hood, as a result of being on the receiving end of cruelty — either personally, through experience or perceived, as social injustice that one can never reasonably conquer alone.

With the twinning sign, the sign of The Lovers, we see duality. There are two sides to every story, but that’s not usually what we tell ourselves.

We, humans, are complex and complicated. We mix, match and exchange energies… and most often the inner (subconscious) drives don’t match our conscious (higher) desires.

The trick is to notice what’s playing on the “other” channel (whether that is within us, or seeing more deeply into another person), and not let it ruin us. {RUIN, the 10 of Swords, is what naturally follows this 9 of Swords energy.} We get to choose if we will be a lover or a hater, regardless of what happens.

We are now reminded of the incredible power our minds have. We can torment ourselves by replaying endless loops of what we did or did not do or say, sending us spinning out of control into shame, guilt and full-blown self-hatred/punishment. And with the 9 vibration — the energy materializes. We reap what we sow, and within the realm of Twin Flames, others reflect back to us what’s going on inside. It’s nearly over with the 9 of Swords. The point when we think it’s useless, pointless, hopeless… But we can now catch ourselves before we fall head over heels into that rabbit hole.

We can remember that Love exists, too, and we have the power to shift our focus (which is very important with the overall energy of this year) to what is good, and true, and based in Love. We can honor our differences and open up our minds to more optimistic and productive thoughts, connection and communication. The kind that alleviates suffering, even in the smallest way, instead of perpetuating it.

That’s why this New Moon is such a blessing, even if it is disguised by the scary face of the card.

You’re Not The Only One

Under this influence, our minds can deceive us into thinking we, alone, are responsible for the suffering we see or experience. We may take on the heavy responsibility (guilt) that weighs our mind down to the point where it begins to show up as dysfunction (of all kinds - health, relationships, finances) in our reality. With the 9 of Swords at play, I see this as a near-complete separation from union... or so we think.

Gemini (The Lovers of the Tarot) is the vibration of connecting with others in our immediate environment. The people we are drawn to, attracted to (romantically or friendly) and how we name (organize in our minds) that connection. Cruelty exhausts that connection… pushes us to the edge where connection appears to be lost. Every sword, dripping with blood, points in one direction.

Now is the time to realize that you are not the only one. Not the only one responsible, Not the only one suffering. And not solely responsible for all the suffering you see or feel. It’s safe for you to lighten up and play and love freely. No one is immune to suffering in life.

We can become more brave through our vulnerability and willingness to connect with another just as we are. We don’t need to buy into a one-sided narrative, whether that’s generated by the media, another person or our own mind.

This New Moon, as dark as this subject matter seems, is a beautiful opening and invitation to emerge out of the suffering and tell yourself a new story, and let your heart have a say in it.

Divine Willpower | New Moon in Aries | April 2019

With this  New Moon in Aries  (Decan II) aligned with the  3 of Wands , we can be proactive and willing to fight or stand-up for something that we believe to be absolute truth. With Mercury newly direct and all planets moving forward at this time, we can feel ready to make a power move, but we must be willing to act from a place of integrity and higher standards, considering not only what is in our own best interest, but in the best interest of others as well. It’s important to be realistic when considering exactly what it will take to create something new, and of higher quality than we’ve known before.

With this New Moon in Aries (Decan II) aligned with the 3 of Wands, we can be proactive and willing to fight or stand-up for something that we believe to be absolute truth. With Mercury newly direct and all planets moving forward at this time, we can feel ready to make a power move, but we must be willing to act from a place of integrity and higher standards, considering not only what is in our own best interest, but in the best interest of others as well. It’s important to be realistic when considering exactly what it will take to create something new, and of higher quality than we’ve known before.

This NEW MOON’s Soundtrack: The Champion by Carrie Underwood ft. Ludacris [Music Video]

The Challenge: difficulty deciphering truth from falsehoods or accepting truth that has been revealed after being hidden for a long time, virtue-signaling - not afraid to tout a moral high ground to put others down, pompous arrogance or self-righteousness, impulsiveness, desiring a quick fix to a large problem that proves to be futile/harmful/damaging, becoming headstrong but lacking humility or grace

The Breakthrough/Potential Wisdom: willingness to risk losing or sacrificing something superficial temporarily in favor of long-term benefits, courage to fight or take a stand for something from a space of integrity and alignment, liberation from long-held fears, breaking the silence to speak the truth, directing creative energy toward something meaningful, willingness to consciously override self-doubt, limiting beliefs and fear in order to pursue something that matters, strength in the face of haters or nay-sayers, renewed vitality, high energy

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With the 3 of Wands, we become a force to be reckoned with!

It’s knowing what we stand for and why. It’s the connection to our core values and an unwavering, undeniable truth that ignites the flame within us, inspiring us to engage with life in a new way. It’s the kind of will that keeps us going even when the going gets tough. When the pain borders on the unbearable, even when we feel broken or down-trodden, this is the unseen force that compels us to keep up the good fight. Because it means more to us than any temporary set-backs or failure. It’s what connects us to something greater than and beyond our self, but at the same time, through the process of fighting for it and sacrificing much, we learn to honor, respect and value our True Self even more.

Magic Wands, Magic Words

The suit of wands is spiritual, passionate and action-oriented. Wands encompass those things that inspire, encourage and motivate us into action. With that kind of fuel, we direct the energy to create new forms. All other symbols in the Tarot suits are forged in fire - swords, cups, and disks. Fire, associated with the wands, comes first. It creates things. It’s the Spirit within that animates and sparks life.

The U.S. Constitution begins with Freedom of Religion and Free Speech in the first amendment, in that order. Perhaps, the revolutionary leaders of the “New World” knew what they were doing. It’s no coincidence that threats to the first amendment are the subject of much debate in American politics these days, and this may be a particularly hot topic in the media around the time of this New Moon as conflict and disagreements surge.

While Mars, the ruler (The Emperor) of this Aries New Moon is a few steps ahead, moving through the sign of Gemini at the this time, we can be quick-witted and sharp-tongued. Some feathers can definitely get ruffled. The magic happens through the spoken (or written) word with these vibes. But it can still be tricky to tell when someone is speaking truthfully, and from the heart. It requires us to tune into their tone and our underlying emotional transmission that we tend to shove aside, when we like what we hear and desperately want to believe it. Deceptive energy is still at play, as it has been for quite a while, but during the New Moon phase we’ll have easier access to our intuitive guidance and subtle instinctive signals, when we are willing to listen.

Our voice is most powerful when we use it authentically and honestly. (Aries loves it when you call a spade a spade, and get straight to the point!) We can initiate conflict (necessary or unnecessary) with our voices, but within this realm of the 3 of Wands, temporary conflicts could lead to beautiful turnarounds and an infusion of love. It reminds me of the difficult conversations guests on the Dr. Phil show have, when they scream and call each other out. But, by the end of the episode, they’re hugging and bawling their eyes out.

Invoking The Power of Three

Our will, and the voice we give it, is best utilized when we stand firm in our integrity. This is, of course, always the case, but we get a conscious boost of this powerfully creative energy through the number 3 now. You may already know that 2019 is a 3 year, and if you read my e-book you know how important this year is. The Aries New Moon is a pivotal moment in the timeline of this year, as we ignite a flame that will continue to revitalize our lives for a long-time to come.

We integrate our will with Divine will through the three graces, the three virtues, the Holy Trinity - however you prefer to name it.

The three graces of classical mythology have been beautifully brought to life, painted and sculpted, by the most masterful and legendary artists since the Renaissance era and in new ways in every era since then. The three graces are goddess qualities represented as three nude female bodies angled in such a way that every aspect of their manifestation is revealed. Some say they are a depiction of the triple moon goddess, signifying the three stage of feminine development and maturity: maiden, mother, crone. Others say they are expressions of characteristics and divine qualities of Lady Venus; chastity, beauty and love.

The three virtues of Christian theology, are like the recipe to being infused by the grace of God.

When we invoke the 3 virtues of Faith, Hope and Charity; integrate and act from those qualities, we become supernatural. They are the anchors that keep us going, moving forward, fighting for something because we know we are not alone. We are tapped in, tuned in to a Creative Source of power. We establish the meaning. We give it a purpose. And then we let the power of 3 fuel us, guide us and lift us when we falter.

If you’ve ever met someone who is tuned in like this, you know. They are the ones who command respect with their mere presence. They make you want to stand up straighter, and inspire you to be better… all while being gentle, charming, graceful and kind.

With the power of three, like the virtues depicted above, we recognize and honor our human nature and allow the divine to operate through us in an imperfectly perfect way. We are motivated to do better, reach higher, but we also recognize when we need to adjust or let go of attachments and singular, self-serving motivations.

Divine Will-Power

We’ve got some heavy, heavy influences ahead of us. We will need to be anchored in Truth, connected with the Light, and humble in order to move forward. We must be willing to accept those temporary upsets along the journey without forfeiting what truly matters above all else. Plugging into creative source, the beauty of the mystery of Life, will carry us through. But we must release the lies we’ve been told or have been telling ourselves. We must be willing to see what is being revealed now, and move forward, even if that sobering realization is emotionally turbulent. It can feel like a blow to the gut to really see where we have been deceiving ourselves, but it is an absolute must now. That means we’ve gotta be brutally honest with ourselves, and get straight. That’s where the 3 virtues, grace or the holy trinity will flood in and help us weather the storms ahead.

HINT: A good way to tell if you are moving in the right direction is if it is NOT based on fixing the past. It’s NOT a twisted version of something that has been tried. And it is NOT certain. If you have no doubts about your own abilities, then that’s a clear sign a trickster energy is at play, deceiving you. — We are creating the Future. And it is nothing like what we’ve experienced before. Stop fooling yourself, thinking that if only you try it this way it will make all your dreams come true and solve all the issues. This is NEW energy. The temptation will be to incorporate or change the past. Stay aware.

That’s why I selected this particular song for the soundtrack to this New Moon. It’s about being “right”, it’s about doing what’s right. It’s about building our own confidence and fighting for what matters most to us. Ultimately we are becoming stronger, individually, in order to do the work of bringing to life a whole new reality and force against us will be great. Connect with your inner-Champion, your Higher Self — that part of you that knows it will worth it and you can do it.

The C is for the Courage I possess through the drama.
H is for the Hurt, but it’s all for the Honor.
A is for my attitude working through the patience.
Money comes and goes, so the M is for Motivation.
Gotta stay consistent, the P is to Persevere.
The I is for Integrity, Innovative career.
The O is optimistic; Open and never shut.
And the N is Necessary ‘cause I’m Never giving up!
— Ludacris, The CHAMPION

Lost | Mercury Retrograde in Pisces | March 2019

The Timeline

Mercury enters what is known as the shadow phase on February 20, 2019. It’s like traveling down a road, then [when Mercury turns Retrograde] making a U-turn and traveling back down that same road, because you forgot something and you’ve got to retrieve it. Once you’ve gone all the way to this point to get what you needed, you pick up where you left off and make another U-turn to retrace this part of the road yet again [that’s the post-retrograde shadow phase] to get to where you originally planned to go.

Shadow path begins in Pisces: February 20, 2019. [Chiron is at Zero Degrees Aries, transitioning into the fiery realm of the Emperor, marking the official end of a cycle that won’t return again for another 50 years.]

Mercury Stations Retrograde in Pisces: March 6, 2019. [Within hours, Uranus crosses the threshold into the sign of Taurus - another major shift that we got a taste of for few months last year. This time it’s official, launching a new reality that will unfold between now and 2026. This influence will not be happening again until around 2100, making it quite significant.]

Mercury is Retrograde until March 29, 2019. Stationing direct that day, the post shadow begins and will last until April 17, 2019.

Key Dates

MARCH 6/7, 2019: New Moon in Pisces, Mercury stations Retrograde in Pisces, Uranus ingress into Taurus

MARCH 14, 2019: Cazimi - Sun Mercury Meet-up

MARCH 20, 2019: Equinox, Full Moon in Libra (at 0*)

MARCH 24, 2019: Mercury Neptune Meet-up

MARCH 28/29, 2019: Mercury stations Direct

Keep Calm Before the Storm

In the days leading up to this pivotal moment when Mercury turns back and it can feel like we are being swallowed whole by a tidal wave, the energies form a sort of alliance to help us suit up and prepare for what’s to come. With a Full Moon in Virgo, Chiron (our inner- Wounded Healer) starting over in Aries, Mars slowing us down a bit in the sign of Taurus, and all planets direct. . .

The cosmic vibes before this Mercury Retrograde seem to whisper, “Something big is coming. Get ready.”

In our own ways, we’ve been getting signals to tune in, remove the excess, tie up the loose ends and pay close attention to what we truly need. There’s a strong focus on grounding and getting centered.

It reminds me of a soldier, fresh out of boot camp. The bell tolls, but there’s time to prepare. As he/she gets ready for the real battle, there’s no room for anything that isn’t absolutely necessary — it would only weigh him/her down. There’s a need to have the tools, skills, resources and knowledge that will be required on the front-line. Also a need for a calm and focused approach. Is there a plan in place? A strategy? And alignment… who are our allies? What really matters in the end? An unwavering commitment to fighting for only what is worth fighting for. A solemn and strict order before the chaos is unleashed.

So much energy in Earth signs before the murky Retrograde takes full effect is important to leverage. When things seem relatively calm, use that time to organize what you can in your life, preferably something that will make your life a little easier later on. It’s worth the effort now to take something stressful off your plate that could tip you overboard in the event that other stressors sneak up on you.

[Soundtrack for this Mercury Retrograde phase: Head Above Water by Avril Lavigne]

More Or Less?

More or less is a typical vague Piscean response to a question, which leaves one wondering what that even means. It’s the quintessential shoulder shrug, wide-open to going either way… there’s really no certainty or definite answer. That’s the over-arching vibe of this whole Mercury Retrograde, making it quite a confusing time, more so than the average Mercury Retrograde effect.

But it’s nothing to gloss over or take too lightly. During this time it may be difficult to judge how much is too much and when enough is enough. Mercury travels through a zone in the cosmos associated with the Tarot card revealing maxed out emotional capacity. This influence can blur the lines between knowing when to stop or wave the white flag, and when to give it your all or see it through to the end.

We can feel like we need a lot more than we do in a given situation. This could result in overdoses, or otherwise extreme reactions when crossing a sensitivity threshold (ie. acute allergic reactions to medicines).

[Use extra caution when it comes to drinking alcohol (or any kind of substance use). Seriously. Even if you are a casual drinker, we’re a bit more susceptible than usual to over-consumption at this time, which will result in a sense of lost time or losing control. Not a time to throw caution to the wind and let loose, especially if it’s in an unfamiliar place or with people you may not fully trust.]

On the flip-side, this influence could leave us seriously lacking in resources or nourishment. Resulting in a deficiency of some kind or letting go of too much. Some could feel a soul-deep urge to sell everything they own and adopt a minimalist lifestyle or take a vow of silence for an extended period of time, or some other extreme abandon everything type of lifestyle shift.

It’s all or nothing energy.


Or nothing at all.

And these two opposite energies can affect one another. For example, a person who suddenly adopts a radical new diet like eating only one type of food in order to lose weight, then suffering a major vitamin deficiency as a result that causes an illness. It’s a sort of abandoning one thing for the sake of another, creating a separation from belief and reality… a tearing away at the core to discover a deeper Truth and revealing the ultimate desire for wholeness.

Either way, there could be an overall need to fill some kind of void. It’s a time to tread lightly and use caution, especially when it comes to anything that is driven by a sense of insatiability. Slow down, and listen to cues that come from deep within.

While the dangers are real with this energy, when we are willing to submit to what is beyond our control and we can open up to unveiling our true self . This is a great time to channel this flow toward something we know we have outgrown or has become toxic in our lives. A time to break-free from dysfunctional patterns that may have had a hold on us for far too long. This makes it an optimal time for rehab, letting go of an addiction once and for all. Remember you can use this force for good.

Can’t Seem to Keep It All Together. . .

Under the influence of this Mercury Retrograde it will be all too easy to lose track of time…. especially when getting distracted or attempting to escape reality in some way. Many things may seem all too seductively binge-worthy now.

Oversleeping could lead to missed appointments or running late….

There may be a sense of brain fog that lends way to forgetfulness. Like, what day is it again? Or, OMG! That was scheduled for today?!

>> My youngest son (born with Mercury in Pisces) has no concept of time. At times this is a beautiful thing, because he could easily spend hours drawing or practicing his magic card tricks. On the other hand, it can be challenging, as I’m always having to remind him that it’s time to eat or get ready to go somewhere. He most always believes he has more time than he does or no time at all, like he’s already missed out. <<

There could be a lot of hang-ups when it comes to managing time, lots of rescheduling or mixing up dates. So, review your calendar carefully during this phase when the essence of time itself comes into question.

It’s a broader brush stroke in the final degrees of the tropical zodiac… We could be at a loss for words or simply have a nagging feeling that something important is missing or has been left behind. We could misplace or lose things. Having a general sense that everything is falling apart, we could be at a total loss.

We, humans, are fallible by nature and because life is so complex, and we ourselves are complex beings, we usually see only what we’re used to seeing or are actively looking for.. Like this selective attention test demonstrates, we miss details that are irrelevant to what we are focusing our attention on. If something doesn’t fit with the narrative we’ve been told or the pattern we are in, we don’t really see it until it disrupts the pattern… even if it’s been there all along. This influence is particularly strong at the New Moon, March 6th, the say that Mercury officially goes retro.

Mercury’s retrograde journey is a swim through the deepest depths of the emotional realms (9 &amp; 10 of Cups, Happiness and Satiety reversed) in the sign of Pisces. In the Major Arcana [Tarot], Pisces is represented by The Hanged Man and The Moon. Mercury [The Magus or “Magician”] is known as  the messenger of the gods.

Mercury’s retrograde journey is a swim through the deepest depths of the emotional realms (9 & 10 of Cups, Happiness and Satiety reversed) in the sign of Pisces. In the Major Arcana [Tarot], Pisces is represented by The Hanged Man and The Moon. Mercury [The Magus or “Magician”] is known as the messenger of the gods.

I don’t mean to be dramatic, but this really is some wild energy that could send us into a tailspin, especially when Mercury links up with Neptune [Happening February 19, March 24 and April 2, 2019]. It seems to wash away whatever we’ve been clinging to for dear life, perhaps without even realizing it, and show us something beyond that. The Truth that’s been there all along, we simply couldn’t see before.

Underneath the Undertow

With the energy of the 10 of Cups activated with this Mercury Retrograde, it can feel like we’re being dragged with the current along the ocean floor or plunged into no man’s land at times. It’s difficult to know where you’re going when you don’t really know where you are or how you got there… and that’s the kind of strange vibes that are at play. The urge to escape the overwhelm can be so strong it’s difficult to resist.

During this phase it’s possible to become overwhelmed by a situation that challenges everything we once believed or believed in.

The energy reads like a scene from a suspenseful thriller…. You know, that pivotal moment when the hero faces the maniacal villain just as he’s about to execute his evil plan. Have you noticed how the hero or “good guy” always asks the enemy, why? What’s the point in doing this? Creating this chaos? Causing this suffering? (We may find ourselves asking a Higher Power these same existential questions.)

The answer given by the villain is never a good one, because it never makes logical sense. At least, not to one who doesn’t hold the same distorted perception of reality. And that’s exactly the point. We are confronted with something beyond our comprehension and yet still… we try to understand or make sense of it somehow. That’s Mercury (our mind) doing what it’s used to doing.

That kind of questioning is tough on the psyche and the emotional state. Clear and direct answers may not be entirely possible at this time.

Even in the movies, those crises are never resolved through logic alone. It requires us to reach beyond what we can see or make sense of, because we’re confronted with something outside of that realm. We must meet it with something beyond what we would normally do or perhaps have ever done before. We may have to let go of a belief or a picture-perfect ending we had imagined when faced with a reality check. Surrender to what is without putting the puzzle pieces together and allow a miracle to unfold or let our creative-genius-side take the reigns.

Everything unpleasant that was hidden from sight may be exposed.... The result may be a feeling of liberation, once you are released from superficial or false attachments.
— Mary K. Greer, The Complete Book of Tarot Reversals

We must not abandon what truly deeply has value and meaning to us in the process.. We must awaken to the space within us that realizes what it is that truly does matter above all else. Those are the guiding lights that flicker and glow, when all else seems to be lost.

Deep in the ocean waters, marine animals have adapted to these bizarre conditions that are unlike anything anywhere else on Earth. They glow in the dark with bio-luminescence. They use sonar and shape-shifting and transparency in a way that enables them to survive and thrive in the vast unknown depths. Just like a hero in a story or movie transcends the limitations of what has been known or even his usual skills and talents to diffuse a crisis, defeat the villain and save the world.

We may not be saving the world, but in some way, each of us is saving ourselves…

The things (underlying stress) that we’ve been neglecting or willfully ignoring take a toll on us. It becomes obvious we can’t go on like this forever.

…Like This Forever?

We could find ourselves going over and over things in our mind, stirring up a seemingly endless loop of emotional torture, until we realize that we cannot keep doing that forever. It could feel like drowning, until you suddenly open your eyes underwater and discover that you can mobilize and engage your muscles in ways that are not possible on land, out of the water. It’s like swimming in the deep end. You recognize that your body is lighter, and strangely more free and flexible, when you are completely submerged.

While Mercury is considered to be debilitated or in detriment in the sign of Pisces, I feel that in a mysterious way, Mercury has the most magical effect in this zone — particularly when retrograde, because things don’t work the way they usually do during this time and we’ve gotta get creative with our solutions to everyday issues. Mercury can play with what’s available in the deepest oceans of Piscean energy, the purest magic. The ultimate Truth. THE Divine. When Mercury gets an opportunity to whip through the abyss, we can engage with the subtler energies that always keep us afloat without us ever really paying attention to them.

We may become painfully aware of where a boundary is needed, too. What we’ve let slide in the past may not be the best choice now. We may feel waves wash over us, revealing that something is amiss and we are leaving ourselves too wide-open or vulnerable to attracting the things we don’t want. While part of Mercury’s path will be aligned with the 9 of Cups, we could be over- or under-appreciating things in our lives, feeling taken for granted or irritatingly unworthy of some kind of praise or gifts because of an unresolved feeling deep within. Even if the ducks are all in a row, there’s this sense of something not being quite right even though we can’t put our finger on exactly what that is.

Issues of codependency, or otherwise over-compensating to make up for an internal sense of lack, may come bubbling up to the surface.

Just as the same rules don’t apply when you’re swimming deep in the ocean as compared to trekking up a steep mountainside, this Mercury Retrograde could provide a calming sense of relief amidst this total restructuring of the world as we know it while Pluto and Saturn do their thing in the sign of Capricorn. It could serve as a sort of spiritual retreat, a break in time, providing solace and reprieve from the intensity and pressure we’ve been feeling from Pluto and Saturn that have us all working so hard.

I’ll Meet You There… At The Altar.

The same rules don’t apply in the depths of the ocean, as they do on solid ground. We can be tossed around like rag dolls in slow motion down there. The force is magnified and yet our bodies, physical matters, seem lighter and more buoyant.

I used to teach swimming lessons to infants decades ago. Babies naturally, instinctively relax once they’re comfortable in the water and float easily once they know they are safe. It’s like they remember what it’s like to be in their mother’s womb, their innocence safely contained and protected from the outside world.

We, too, must learn to relax and go with the flow when we realize we’re getting in over our heads or finding it hard to breathe… Become one with the water, essentially. Return to the cosmic womb. I titled my e-book Quantum Rebirth 2019 (about the energies of this year) for a reason. We get this period of time during Mercury Retrograde to re-set and reconnect to the sacred space of Life. It’s no coincidence that this is all enveloping the Equinox, too. On it’s own, this time is when we are renewed with Mother Nature, held in her cyclical rhythm, reminded that there is balance and harmony in our material world (even when it doesn’t look that way).

In the space between letting go and falling apart emotionally, we could realize how truly magical our Life already is. That space is where poets, musicians and artists of every shape and form create their very best work.

As we drop to our knees and beg for mercy we discover things in the stillness… Humility. Grace. Innocence. Our True Nature. Infinite Love.

When we release our need to do it our way we are lifted up by the divine way. This is a rite of passage. To release who we once thought we were and more fully Live the Truth of who we are.